Phase II. Post marriage

So this is October

I guess 7 months are over now.. And I believe this is the correct time to define Phase II or Post marraige scenario.

I remember the next day at my new home . New people New home Alienated daughter (for now ), thank god not sister (Eventually) but a well embraced wife , daughter in law, sister in law and last but not the least aunt as well.

In one day so many additional relationships in my dictionary even though I am scared but at the same time I am anxious.

Now rituals are started Seriously I have no idea what that uncle half nude (pandit ji) is blabbering I am trying to catch his lips to know what he is saying Is it sanskrit or Hindi? or French , German  but then I realised this language is special ,exclusively made by pandit ji's.

Anyways I am hungry dude ...

Finally after that puja which is basically a story , I can have food ...
I am waiting for food I heard some doorsteps Oh! finally my food is here but wait, my all dreams are shattered (for now). It is some aunty who has come suddenly embraced me for few minutes I was not able to realise what is going on??
OH!! she has come to see new bride and giving bribe ( gift)

It is dark now but still the showcase of bride is not yet over but inside I am enjoying this maybe because nevertheless after sometime I will become old  .....

Eventually a new bride has to experience not in just terms of new relations but with rituals , understanding people, improvising habits, commencing own decisions

Maybe the best part of the day , while having dinner all the family members are waiting for me why??so that we all together can start dinner (Indeed a small thing to imagine but leaves a huge impact behind) or a long term investment I can say....



                                             A new bride is not just a bride
                                     she is an anchor between two families
           A new bride is not just for showcase she enters the house with responsibilities
                                            to make home a better place
                             She enters the door with new dreams , decisions,
                     leaving behind one life and reborn again to start a new life

                                                           

Phase1 A bride's Heart- For Parents

One day , one evening , one moment , one second which will make you feel you don't belong here, you don't belong to them , they 'were' not 'are' the most crucial part of your life. I can feel scrabble in my voice

"om mangalam bhagvan.................." I can hear these enchanting continuously while other people around me are busy in chatting and some of them are looking at me and murmuring I wonder what they talking about me or "us" or my family or my makeup or my dress bla bla bla...

Suddenly my eyes stopped at one point where my parents are sitting and watching me with a smile but I can see their eyes are filled with tears ready to flow anytime , I can feel the tide of immense sadness which they are hiding with that 0.5 mm smile...

I am helpless sitting in that position I cant even smile because I know that will not change anything.

While watching the hawan kundh I can feel that fire within me of all the mistakes, I hurt them , I teased , I shared with them but I know this will never going to happen again .

Yes! something will change from inside which is unsaid but we all three know it..

Hundreds of people thousand of eyes but there is someone who is happy but breaking from inside. .While standing like a statue in that stage wearing an expensive dress with all makeup on and most important for every hour keeping a smile on face but still fighting every tear from inside I don't think so anyone in the crowd will notice this in my eyes.

Time is running very fast tick tock tick tock " oh its 3:00 A.M !!  " finally just 2 more hours to go when I will be called only DAUGHTER AND SISTER.. 

While standing near car i looked around everyone is crying she is red as tomato with swollen eyes but still tears in her eyes

I can feel now I will have to think twice before sharing anything with her indeed she is the one whose heartbeat is related with me...

I can feel now I will have to think twice before sharing anything with him indeed he stood like a wall in front of me

I can feel now I will not fight with him again the same way a day before.

Every time if i will take one step I will have to come 5 steps down put a smile and conflict with my mind "Plz they are the one "  
Mind- "but from now its only YOU"

That single thought.......

Finally the time has come when I will not go home again as their only daughter

Finally the time has come when there will be a transparent line between us

Finally we are standing on opposite sides......

A new life is waiting for me 

A new person has held my hand , my father gave my hand in his hand and said with tears " She is my doll" ........

                                                       with no choice

                                                           and then

                                                 I left everything behind 

Two ways

                                                               TWO WAYS


Sometimes in life we do the things that are just way to go. There are always two paths in front of you ,and the fact is you have to walk on both the paths some or the other day but at the right time. In case if you will enter the path before the time no dbout you will have to return back to the begning and start again all the things.

Even after chosing when you realize that actualy the decision was a hasty one there is noting left except for the fact oh freek! I wanted to be in that moment again and get the things done right but as it is said time and tide wait for none so do your, actions.

"Believe" is the most iportant ingredient for any action to take place and acquire the thing. Believe and fear cant go hand in hand for the fact where there is believe there is no place for fear . Once you wll start believing your fear will no more live with you. So before chosing any path just keep in mind that believe in yourself before stepping into any one of them and then forget about the end just believe in yourself and move forward most wore outcome can be and infact will be that you will have to start the things all over again as said above but as the more you will remain calm the more you will learn the things and implement it.

Every action teach you something or the other and if you have learnt the things previously you will not repeat the things again or even if you will repeat the damage will not be that high..
Whatever you will get on the way it is your decision what to keep and what to leave behind but once you get something never forget that this is one of the most prized possession of your life and you cant just le it go easily, at the end believe is something which will make you realize from time to time this is the thing I waited for............