Rusty Loop- The Entangled Mind

Ok! So here is a situation.

I am into a relationship with this guy, it has been now almost 5 years but inside my head, I can feel that things are not the same as they use to be.

We are smiling, we give hugs, we share things but still inside my heart I know, I am not feeling the same and later I realized he is also on the same page with me.

But 

Still, we continue to pretend and act like the perfect couple, he is moving to another city, I see him online in Whatsapp for 1 hour, 2 hours, 3 hours but I don't get a single message now from him but yes I do get an immediate good night once I ask "hey! You had dinner?"

"Yes! I hope You had too, I am too tired, I think I 'll sleep now".

"Oh! ok, Good night take care" with a smile in the end

And, let me tell you the same implies on me, its not just him.

Every night now before sleeping I decide, tomorrow morning I will tell him that things are not working out between us and we should move on now in good terms, but let me tell you one interesting thing we both are loyal to each other, we are not seeing any other guy/girl so ideally, it's not a relationship betrayal because of the third person. (just in case one of the major reasons for most  of the breakups out there)

But still, we are fooling each other which is equal to betrayal because we are hiding the very root of relationship and questing the trust factor.

We can sense the storm or maybe not, we can sense the tension of not getting separated but hiding the very thought of separation.

At this time I m not tensed because I ll lose him, I am more tensed because we will drag this and we will be Entangled In Our Minds now and every time, every day and every moment.

One fine day we decided to speak our hearts out and suddenly our minds are free.

We can feel that adrenal rush not because of this breakup but because we gathered the courage to face the reality, we are not shedding a tear maybe because we felt it but we were not able to say it , which in itself is the wrong deed in our relationship, hiding the true feeling.

"Duty was never a relationship"- Rads

A Similar Situation

We often find ourselves clout in a situation which can neither be understood or can be made understand either to oneself or to others.

Such feelings are rare to get but eventually after lot of calculations and callous experiences make us realize the importance of not only person but make us understand and value the moments spent with them , help us to know the value of a relation.

We whimper when they are gone , when we sit and remember each and every moment spent with them , each and every  times we fought , laughed , cried and all the emotions we shared together.

At last what is left just the memories but they also fade away with time if we choose to. 

We have one life but we keep of wasting time and unable to live our life wisely maybe coz of the fact we waste lot of time thinking or fearing something which don't even exist or which has very transient impact in our life .

It totally depends upon us how e take the life and how we live our life , when we say life the thing strike in our head is just our lifestyle or what are we doing with our life I terms of career or the partner.

We should not forget there is a time for each and every thing in life but we should not even forget that when the things are done out of the time then for sure it leaves a deep impact in form of scar which will not just go out of our life no matter what we do, no matter where we go, no matter whom we meet, no matter how calm and composed we are , no matter how much we think and no matter how much  we do but we will always find our self inside the loop where we cant go out.

We are so much absorbed in our own world that we fail to notice , what is happening around us or who is there next to us.