Phase II. Post marriage

So this is October

I guess 7 months are over now.. And I believe this is the correct time to define Phase II or Post marraige scenario.

I remember the next day at my new home . New people New home Alienated daughter (for now ), thank god not sister (Eventually) but a well embraced wife , daughter in law, sister in law and last but not the least aunt as well.

In one day so many additional relationships in my dictionary even though I am scared but at the same time I am anxious.

Now rituals are started Seriously I have no idea what that uncle half nude (pandit ji) is blabbering I am trying to catch his lips to know what he is saying Is it sanskrit or Hindi? or French , German  but then I realised this language is special ,exclusively made by pandit ji's.

Anyways I am hungry dude ...

Finally after that puja which is basically a story , I can have food ...
I am waiting for food I heard some doorsteps Oh! finally my food is here but wait, my all dreams are shattered (for now). It is some aunty who has come suddenly embraced me for few minutes I was not able to realise what is going on??
OH!! she has come to see new bride and giving bribe ( gift)

It is dark now but still the showcase of bride is not yet over but inside I am enjoying this maybe because nevertheless after sometime I will become old  .....

Eventually a new bride has to experience not in just terms of new relations but with rituals , understanding people, improvising habits, commencing own decisions

Maybe the best part of the day , while having dinner all the family members are waiting for me why??so that we all together can start dinner (Indeed a small thing to imagine but leaves a huge impact behind) or a long term investment I can say....



                                             A new bride is not just a bride
                                     she is an anchor between two families
           A new bride is not just for showcase she enters the house with responsibilities
                                            to make home a better place
                             She enters the door with new dreams , decisions,
                     leaving behind one life and reborn again to start a new life

                                                           

Phase1 A bride's Heart- For Parents

One day , one evening , one moment , one second which will make you feel you don't belong here, you don't belong to them , they 'were' not 'are' the most crucial part of your life. I can feel scrabble in my voice

"om mangalam bhagvan.................." I can hear these enchanting continuously while other people around me are busy in chatting and some of them are looking at me and murmuring I wonder what they talking about me or "us" or my family or my makeup or my dress bla bla bla...

Suddenly my eyes stopped at one point where my parents are sitting and watching me with a smile but I can see their eyes are filled with tears ready to flow anytime , I can feel the tide of immense sadness which they are hiding with that 0.5 mm smile...

I am helpless sitting in that position I cant even smile because I know that will not change anything.

While watching the hawan kundh I can feel that fire within me of all the mistakes, I hurt them , I teased , I shared with them but I know this will never going to happen again .

Yes! something will change from inside which is unsaid but we all three know it..

Hundreds of people thousand of eyes but there is someone who is happy but breaking from inside. .While standing like a statue in that stage wearing an expensive dress with all makeup on and most important for every hour keeping a smile on face but still fighting every tear from inside I don't think so anyone in the crowd will notice this in my eyes.

Time is running very fast tick tock tick tock " oh its 3:00 A.M !!  " finally just 2 more hours to go when I will be called only DAUGHTER AND SISTER.. 

While standing near car i looked around everyone is crying she is red as tomato with swollen eyes but still tears in her eyes

I can feel now I will have to think twice before sharing anything with her indeed she is the one whose heartbeat is related with me...

I can feel now I will have to think twice before sharing anything with him indeed he stood like a wall in front of me

I can feel now I will not fight with him again the same way a day before.

Every time if i will take one step I will have to come 5 steps down put a smile and conflict with my mind "Plz they are the one "  
Mind- "but from now its only YOU"

That single thought.......

Finally the time has come when I will not go home again as their only daughter

Finally the time has come when there will be a transparent line between us

Finally we are standing on opposite sides......

A new life is waiting for me 

A new person has held my hand , my father gave my hand in his hand and said with tears " She is my doll" ........

                                                       with no choice

                                                           and then

                                                 I left everything behind 

Two ways

                                                               TWO WAYS


Sometimes in life we do the things that are just way to go. There are always two paths in front of you ,and the fact is you have to walk on both the paths some or the other day but at the right time. In case if you will enter the path before the time no dbout you will have to return back to the begning and start again all the things.

Even after chosing when you realize that actualy the decision was a hasty one there is noting left except for the fact oh freek! I wanted to be in that moment again and get the things done right but as it is said time and tide wait for none so do your, actions.

"Believe" is the most iportant ingredient for any action to take place and acquire the thing. Believe and fear cant go hand in hand for the fact where there is believe there is no place for fear . Once you wll start believing your fear will no more live with you. So before chosing any path just keep in mind that believe in yourself before stepping into any one of them and then forget about the end just believe in yourself and move forward most wore outcome can be and infact will be that you will have to start the things all over again as said above but as the more you will remain calm the more you will learn the things and implement it.

Every action teach you something or the other and if you have learnt the things previously you will not repeat the things again or even if you will repeat the damage will not be that high..
Whatever you will get on the way it is your decision what to keep and what to leave behind but once you get something never forget that this is one of the most prized possession of your life and you cant just le it go easily, at the end believe is something which will make you realize from time to time this is the thing I waited for............

Pre marriage status

I still remember the first day of this scenario..
Inner side: dude! This dress it so damm heavy.. I am decorated like a barbie doll with all sort of wands, shoes that pink dress bla bla bla
Outer side: (with a smile) plz have some snacks.
Inner side: I am hungry i want to have this like a lion feasting on his meal.
Outer side: (smile on face) silence!!!! In the room tick tock tick tock..
I can see all the eyes scanning my every expressions(leme remind a smile on face)
My eyes rolling in all four corners of the room as if i am sitting in this room first time.. What a momemt in the same sofa where i almost rolled myself like a cat, right now sitting in just 3/4 part of it.. Well i m wondering this sofa is really huge then
Ohh! Coming back to the day.. Finally a word from persom one, then suddenly as if a crowd of words is running towards me and i am feeling like a gladiator with all weapons and shield come on!!! Yes yes I am ready... But in reality the opposite of this is happening what no rain of questions, no inquiry huffff!! Thank god these tv actress they add more of terrified things..
Finally the hero of this picture utters a word and while sitting some weird thoughts are running in my mind.. Oh i like kabab they are cooked but when will i get those? And suddenly i saw a glimpse of me on mirror oh no! Is this me i am looking like a makeup shop.
But its ok this is what the situation has demanded and (proudly) i have given it to this bird called as situation.
Woieeeeee!! Finally i have defeated u, u over confident situation.
Gurrrrr! Where the hell is my phone, i wanna play my fav game right now....
Suddenly i hear a voice and my thoughts are interupted!! And as i came back whopps! The reality pre marriage

What next??? 

Feelings -simply feelings

Sometimes the pain is so severe that one stop feeling it.
This is the situation when a person become stone, simply numb.

"I loved u " she said ( eyes glittering with tears rolling down the cheeks)

He simply smiled and said " I know" (he wants her , he madly loves her but he cant do anything except for smiling

Oh! Its not a relation , he is a feeling which can not be described in words

(This is not the right time , but i cant get u out of me, its ok this is life ) while she was busy in thinking and fighting with her thoughts suddenly she hear a voice " hey you ready? We are getting late!"

She comes back to real world clear her thoughts,  wear a beautiful smile and walked with a man to his family.

Few years back they took a decision ,which has changed their world
They both wanted to fall apart not coz of pain or some difficulty in their relation but they let each other go with a smile

It has been years now infact more than she can think
Yes! Even Today they both are busy in their own world ,but still there is not a single day when they dont think of each other and smile only with memories.

The only existence is memories just memories.
People fall apart but love always remains fresh like the first snow wrapped in the arms of earth.

Smile

Life is like a heartbeat sometimes up sometimes down but it keeps on running.
Many times there comes a situation when even after knowing the result one feels as if this heart has skipped a beat, no words to speak still 100 of emotions within bouncing back coz you know the person who can only understand ,he is only far from you.

A smile on face , shimmer in eyes , hiding that pain , those tears in eyes, Oh! My lord this is the situation when entire world is happy but still you are the only one left in the crowd. Give me strength give me courage to pass a smile when he will flash in front of me.

He is life , he is breath still he is standing at the other end . I have everything on my hand still i am bound with strong sound. This is a situation when a person has legs but he cant fell , a person has tounge but he cant speak , a person has eyes but he cant see & a person has ears but he canr hear.

Even in the presence of mind , it has stopped working ,I feel the cry which is coming from inside ,I know he has tears even he will cry but I am helpless i cant even wipe . I know eveyrthing still i am in a condition with no body only soul which is already with him .

But at the end
Life is like a heartbeat sometimes up sometimes down but it keeps on running.

You are my dream come true
You are the best of me
You are my happiness
You are me

15 weird things that humans do

We think our self to be very smart and intelligent lets have a look at our smartness :P

1.Looking at a Q-tip after pulling it out of your ear to proudly judge how much wax you swabbed out

2.Wondering what would happen if you punched someone in the face mid-conversation.

3. Liking things that are universally loved, but pretending it’s a unique side of you with OMG sentence“Oh my god ________"

4.Remembering something funny from like two years ago and then laughing hysterically. Then, when you’re trying to make yourself stop laughing, you just end up laughing more.

5.Circling around your apartment whenever you have to talk on the phone.

6.Talking to your pets like they’re little people. “Who’s a good little guy? Is it you? Is it you? Yes it is! What a good little boy!”

7.Pretending you’re in a music video or movie montage when you’ve got your headphones on.

8.Sticking your loose hairs to the walls of the shower and then splashing them off.

9. Touching the plate even when the waiter says it's extremely hot, because you have trust issues and have to see for yourself. 

10.Dancing in elevators, bathroom stalls, basically any small place in which you find yourself alone.

11. Immediately going back and reading an email right after you hit send.

12.Rehearsing arguments again and again in your head, just in case it should ever come up.

13. Apologizing to doors or furniture when you accidentally kick or bump into them.

14. Googling something without thinking and then staring at the search results like “what just happened how did I get here?”

15. Feeling sympathy towards inanimate objects when they're underused or discarded.

 

Living Technical Zombie

Today when I was sitting in front of my system , I was wondering how easy technology has made our life Isn't It? within seconds we can get the news of world, we can investigate of our enemies , crushes, ex , future gf/bf etc etc. But suddenly I felt something a strange feeling which I think each and everyone of you might have felt with the gadgets around you that " Everyone one in fact the whole world is present with you" but even after being present with you every second everything is still absent , you can see , hear , speak but you can not feel the essence of anyone around us.

The things are just temporary ofcourse the act as the medium but from inside these are making emotions also a network where recharge is required to make someone smile , towers are required to proof that you have mind , signals are required to awake you and tell what is happening around you.In short we are becoming zombies but upgraded model of zombies because with us this so called technology is attested !!

Scrolling down for hours just to check who is doing what?

One question for such subway surfers!!!

Do u even know what is happening in your life and what is the direction you are going??

99% of us even after completing the entire cycle of studies still don't know what we have have to do, still they are confused and don't know the reason why they have even studied!!
oops! Have I said studies? I m sorry i mean investigation whats going on in ma enemies life ? or why the hell this girl./boy is so happy? oh shit why I am not at this place??.

And for making every individual a live BBC channel credit goes to none other than our virtual world!!

Congratulation so called technology you are successful in converting a living being or I can say your creator into a living machine!!

A long period

In every persons life a stage or a point arrives when he has to choose a way between two diversified paths ,one which will lead a way to success and other which will be a hurdel. A person who has set goal to achieve and is ready to walk in the path of success knowing what all things he has to sacrifice he will be on heights soon.

Seeing the current trend without money its difficult to survive ,everyone wants a lifestyle like clubing , to carry branded items etc etc but to avail all this a person has to work ,Yes!! He has to work hard+ smart both ,as there are end number of people around you who are ready to pull you down as they will get chance.

Succes is not so tough to get but it ask for some sacrifices ,if you are strong enough to give it whatever it ask it will not hesitate in coming your side and ofcose to retain it again you have to work for it.

Succes is like a customer tap it ,hold it and retain it once you loose interest or not able to cope with tha dynamics you will surely gonna loose it as the follow up process should be proper and appropriate 😊

So dont just dream or run after success try to make a plan with short term goals and implement it

Choose a right path to lead your way 😊

Karma- a secret of life

"I owe you things, i owe you my life my happiness , my sadness , my weakness, my strength"
                                        - LiFe

Everyday we get up with new hopes but with same dreams . With every passing day we add one more chapter to the "book of life" we owe to this person or thing called as LIFE , we do lot of stuff without giving a thought how much we are adding in our Karma Yes! KARMA is nothing but simply the deeds we do in our day today life if we do something wching results in negativity is bad karma and vice versa. It is very important to know the secret of life because ofocse we are living this incrediable life.
Now the question is what is this secret , so many moods , so many swings what is the reason??? An important question unanswered ! Did we evrr thought of this question
Why? Why we are rushing? What will be the result? What will we get ?
I guess no . Right !!!
What is life ? Its simply the karma we are doing , its simply our deeds which we owe to ourself , all these are debited and credited in the " life account"
         which at the end have to be balanced as assets and liabilities sides have to be equalized. For that we have to continusly do karma . Finally at the end the account will be audited by the auditor name "GOD" He will decide weather the life account opened is balanced or not at the end ! Weather the person haa earned profits or losses in form of karma.

At the end the only thing matters is our karma. Keep on doing the karma without the lust of result.
If u will have lust , you will never be able to achieve moksh. In hindu mythology it is said a person attain moksh if he do good deeds in his life.

A good deed is simply being true to yourself nothing else if you will not lie to yiurself you will not lie to life because it is said a part of him reaides in each and every individual.

Never try to rule yourself instead try to become a part of your own life and you will see the things are same as you want them to be.
                                  

Difficult task

Very often it's difficult to control the emotions , but this is the utmost exigent decision at the moment.
People might not fathom it at the moment but eventually once realized they never demur.
Every second is unpredictable , you dont know what or who is waiting for u but if Vestigial in this world one has to be a inhibited.
All the situations are not same , some might be perilous while some velvety but as it is a person should never loose his control once lost he is same as an insane dog who probably dont know what he is doing but end up lying in middle of road with blood all around as he couldnt judge in his insanity where he is or what he is doing.

I wonder why it is do difficult to set the priorities as per their importance some are se. For long term while some for short term.

Yes! It is easy to pretend what you dont want to show or want to hide and trust me rarely anyone bothers . Huffffff! These anyone oh goshh! what to say its simply ridiculous we are doing something not for ourselves but for this so called anyone how funny is this !! Anyways back of emotions, its ok if one is not able to control emotions and why ,the question is seriously why? we will do whatevr we feel like no matter what we are losing or gaining.

Yea now thats the attitude ! Isnt? Sounding so damm good right ! But practically oh god !!we have to think 1000 times for one thing ,we dont like this over thinking but still we do.

Is this seriously all about difficult task !yes it is we nake the things difficult for ourselves and then we keep on crying so set the priorities, keep the patience and do the things with confidence.

It will probably work for you ...

panorama feelings

It is very important to display your feelings every time or i can say on time indeed when required. Things can totally go against you even unexpected , it is not necessary that two people thinking matches. Every time expectations are not fulfilled .
I know the facts and figures ,even accept sometimes i do something beyond expectations but just once atleast once put yourself in my place and try to see the things from my place. I don't feel like saying the things expecting a better understanding but in this whole procedure i did a mistake that is expectation.
I pretend to be someone which i am not! yes i agree because i accept my all mistakes without expecting a mark of forgiveness on other end. I always wished of something i knew i will not get.

I keep on making a pile of things , i should realize that every time unspoken words are not enough.

                                                 In the dream of dark, hoping for a light
                                 I am afraid of losing myself in the process of finding my part in you
                                I may not be the perfect person but probably I can be the most closest
                               I adore you the way , you deny still after deny I find my way in your thoughts
                              I curiously wait for each and every words coming out of your mouth 
                                              whose meaning is only understood by me
              I feel delighted when I just think of you , from inside i get enlightened with an unseen             unsaid emotions I can feel this flow within my veins, oh no its you running in my blood stream.

Reading the above lines I may sound weird ,in fact not just weird a kind of insane but its ok . I happily accept this because atleast i am keeping myself out of this fake world and can escape from creating this kind of world around me.

               In life it is very important to track all the feelings and convey it on time

"Some things are done in life not for ourselves but for the one connected with you as your life-line"

Another beautiful day , i probably dint expect to be a turning point or a judgement day type but still a day to remember , a day to cherish i guess ,ammmm indeed a day which added one more step to maturity.

i still remember the first stance with blank expressions , eyes saying entire story but words doing work of stabbing but its ok some people are meant to understand the unsaid silence hidden in the darkest corners of the room , i did yes! i found such door along with keys next to me.

as i entered , my way changed , i started believing on my unsaid believe , i started mesmerizing on my unsaid conditions , i started thinking on my unsaid thoughts . Was that a change? or adoption of situation ? or a felling of entering a world with no mind ?
i lived all my life in just that single moment, 

anyways i am helpless as i am the only one who is responsible for my situation of present and probably i don't have right to complain or  portray that i am a victim. I am happy for the things i did as i was aware of the outcome since first day so why i am feeling broken today , is this right ?

Ofcose not !! as all the things were and are pretty clear in my mind but still at the end i am human being with end number of emotions and i probably feel that somehow this is not just the duty on my part but , at the end this is all because i wished to!
why at the end this 'BUT"comes in the scenario i fail to understand . 
                                                I AM HELPLESS EVERYTHING SEEMS
                                                               MEANINGLESS
                                               I ADORE THE WAY YOU LIE, I JUST 
                                                                WANT TO FLY
                                              I FAIL TO UNDERSTAND , WHY SEEM TO
                                                      SO DISTURBANCE
i probably have to understand the reason to everything, the end of everything is not as same as before i need to understand the reason to live ,the reason to live is always not the same , i need to understand the reason yes!! i need to understand the reasons i have to live the way i want to i was not born with the same .

i will cherish the moments i will always cherish the life i will always move on yes! i will now just think about myself and ready to face everything with a smile on my face and strength to cope with all the troubles on my way , yes !! i agree i face lot of problems in fact everyone did but at the end i have to understand.

                                        LIVE HAPPILY WITH A POSITIVITY IN ATTITUDE
      LIFE IS LIKE AN OCEAN, COMPOSED OF LOW AND HIGH TIDES AT SAME TIME
                            BE THE MOON , REASONS FOR THE TIDES NOT THE TIDES